Steeping up a gaiwan of OG Green Tea
with a kush buddy, a little pupperoni
Watching this video by Doctor Jordan B. Not Samantha, please.
Get into the YouTube, really check it out though, he’s a cool dude, not rude.
He’ll break it down for you, and build it up way higher.
I’m not screwing around right now,
I’m a lot of things, but not a goddamn liar.
Like what’s the point of all this
madness and fights over bullshit
We all have rights and are done wrong
but no wrongs can be undone
with more wrongs, what’s done is gone.
We don’t have long, let’s just move on.
I’m not a moron, and neither are you, obviously but it’s not the group
It’s just you, the divine individual
in full glory, the spark in the heart
of the hero of each own story
Not feminist or misogynist, misandrist or antichrist the protagonist of everyone is the catalyst for existential bliss.
And that’s how it is.
A little girl picked along a stream weaving through the cedars and pine near her mountain home.
She looked left and right, under her feet, across the water and all around, picking up a shiny stone here and there, placing each one in her apron pocket.
After awhile her apron grew heavy and her stomach grumbled, so she left the stream and walked home, leaning on the quiet trees she passed along the way.
Her father was just arriving with two buckets of water on a plank settled across his shoulders. He saw her waddling towards him and laughed into the sun.
She heaved her swollen apron onto the great stump father used to split wood, spilling out the jumble of stones in an oracle’s dice throw.
“Mama mountain laid eggs!”
He reached into the pouch at his waist and held out his hand, wide as the stump, showing her a single dark red rock.
“And what will this hatch, daughter?”
She wrinkled her tiny face in thought, while the hatchet in his other hand swung in a blur over the stone, casting a flock of hissing sparks into the fire pit at his feet.
Her eyes grew wide and she smiled.
Soon steam began to rise from the pot hung over the fire pit. He scooped some out into a clay bowl and handed it to her. The warmth spread into her little hands, and behind his beard, the father smiled.
Steamed almond milk in dark chocolate.
Gluten free granola with pumpkin seeds.
“Your hair is nice,” he said to me.
Waiting for a drip refill, not his turn in line.
“Looks like an angel,” he gestured to her
“Don’t you think?” As she spun the register.
“That, this and your total is six sixty six.”
A laugh that would not be held back
Came out a boulder after Indiana Jones.
“There’s some irony there,” she said.
“Can I touch it,” he asked with earbuds in.
I consented and bowed my head to him.
Look within my brother, see my sin
See my dying mother, see my crooked kin
Say you met me in a post apocalyptic place
You would not think this face angelic
Beneath this halo of hair a brown bear
A crown of horns and raven stare
Lovesick greed and prideful envy
Lust for every other empty
Troll and Cold War border sentry
Hooves and grooves worn in memory
I am the fire which takes your home
I am the liar who bleeds the stone
I am therapist and analyst and clone
I am the night which swallows suns
I am the oceans of desire
I am the all consuming one
I am the throne assuming son
I am the all sowing sire
The demon of eternal bones
All blessings be upon your way
But can the universe think about you? You could believe that it thinks nothing about you, that it doesn’t recognize you.
But you must remember that from the beginning of this universe, and all the universes it contains, you specifically, precisely, were brought into existence, every atom is arranged in just such a way as to become exactly your personality and your freckles and your secret dreams, everything all at once, for all time in all directions, is connected.
It’s not the universe which doesn’t see you… it’s you. Better recognize. Look in the mirror. And by that I mean look around. You’re everywhere! You’re a superstar, a supernova, you’re blowing up! You can be seen across time and space, expanding, growing up.
You’re a star, you’re the Sun. Sol. Soul.
There’s a whole solar system around you. A speck of dust in your orbit has life bursting forth from cracks in the thin film of dried rock. What that life thinks of you, if it worships you, if it hides itself from your explosive integrity, it doesn’t matter to you. You’re not aware of it, not the way that life is aware of you.
Into the open wonder of all this
Material confounding our essence
In concordance with the fullness
Of spurious excess aesthetics
Digging in trenches
Cowardice consent with offenses
Mental menses and critical lenses
Crippled and sinuous revelations
An end to the endless
Whether the climate wrenches
Life and love from our tenuous clenches
Or the immenseness
of our spirit synthesis
Supplants our senses
We sail on empty
We ride on rails reality renders
Just ahead of our advances
A thought awake
A wave relentless
Anneal us anoint us alloy us
Amidst our mounting defenses
Repentance resolves into
Precipitation of exegesis
The mirror of mother
sleeve of every scale and color
venomic apertures and cavernous hunger
sarcophagus uterus crypt of crippled womb
a corpse in the room
scream in a tomb
and nobody blinks
where is the humor
in this hall of human beings
here have some death
and say your goodbyes
the sentence is short
the past here lies
to beat the heart
and soak the cries
hand to rag
haul to hell
and back for supplies
every once in awhile
First the smell
of baking bread 🥖
then the hunger
of a black hole 🕳
so death draws
upon the human soul 💀
No end is the goal.
What drives you, though? 🚗
No credits will roll.
What’s pushing us through? ⏭️
Where are we going and
what the $^*! should we do? ⁉️